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Tuesday, February 3, 2009 Y

k, i'm surposed to do my research for my ttb which is due tonigh but in the end, i ended up HERE!!

haiz.. i noe that i'm not surpose to haiz, especially during the period of chines new yr, but i just couldn't help it..
now, i start to wonder!! really wonder, what had happen to mi..
am i really dislike school so much or??

now, i feel like i have change to another peroson..
which is not my real mi!!

is cus i have grown up or??
in sch, i have become a quiet gal, dun usually talk unless it is necessary..
i would not share my feeling wif the classmates, even if its my fp magtes..
i just ZIP and keep my mouth shut..

is this the real mi or??
i hate this kind of mi.. i noe that i'm not this kind of perosn but just dun noe why, in sch, i dun feel like talking at all.. i just kind of SAD.. upset on everything..

i remember my besti has said bout mi, and she say that she wish to be like mi as i have lots of fren.. but i think if she is in my situaltion, she will not want to be like mi. cus what i have most is those high-bye frenz, not like her.. is those that really wanna be fren wif u then be friend!!

now, i dun even feel to say hi to them.. sometimes, when i was on my way to sch, i just walk past them or try to stay away from them..

sound weird right, but i just can't help it..
i think i now too tired of those fake fake ppl..which is me.. sometimes i dun really noe the perosn but i still have to like fake and say hi whereby i'm not really noe that person.. i dun like this..
i feel very tired of doing this.. damn damn tired.

well!! this only happen in sch.. while for my outside frenz, i dun have such feeling at all..
i'm like those had said, 双面人..
cus when i wit my outside frenz, i totally another kind of person- the real mi!!

this made mi like to or rather to spend time wif them than my sch mates (hmm, not totally all, there still some of them, i ok wif them. it just that they nw are not in my class, and gp.. :C

i prefer to be wif
-my best drinking kakis(though now kind of hard to really meet up, e movie we had on last sat was funz n thx 4 invite mi to ur chalet there n have a sleep over)
-supper kakis.. esp, ll.. wif u ard, i surely laugh like mad gal.
-besties... have to meet up more, dun be 2 busy on ur stuff n forget bout mi
-even my bro!! though we sometimes, quarrel but at least it the real mi... n i dun care what i am in front of u.. haha..

that the first thing that happen to mi.
second are MONEY!! i'm broke!! lol.. usually u get to earn money very fast and easy especially during chinese new yr but well.. i'm the opposite one...

for the past few day, i have been taking cap from my home to sch (SENTOSA!!)
though its consider cheaper than others but i dun think i can afford to do that..
and also, recenlty i keep buying food. i'm surposed to lose weight but in the end, i keep eating and eating non stop.. oh man, plus i recently not feeling well, sick due to terrible cough, this made mi even hard to control!!

$..$$..$$.. plz give mi luck or something,
i NEED MONEY, without $$$, i can't survive!! ARr!!!

now i have to save and dun anyhow spent already...

۩11:53 PM -
YTake All The Broken Dreams AwayY