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Monday, February 9, 2009 Y

this few days, i was having a tough day..

my dad is hospitalised on last thurs,...
today is the 4th day in hospital.

DOCTOR said that there's bleeding in his brain due to high blood pressure
and half of his body, left side was handicape..(hmm, not really handicap, it just that his hand and leg is weak)

on thurs, both my mum and i dash to hospital... actually, i was really scare, i afraid that something might happen to him. we wait at the emergency room for bout 2 hr plus, then the nurse came out and told us the news and he have to stay in the hospital..

after settle the bills and registration.. we went to visit him. at the moment, he can't really talk clearly, we stay for a while then head off.. doctor say that his situation is unstable and we have to wait for a few days to c how his situation goes.. either become good or worsen...

tat's the 1st day.. after i reach hm, i try to apply lol for my sch.

2nd day, we reach.. hmm, how to say, i think that 2nd day and the 3rd day are the worst cus on those day, my dad can't eat, drink, walk to pass his motion.. he didn't eat on thurs from the whole afternoon, (actually, tilll now he can't really eat 2.. he can only drink milk but though tube feeding) .. when we in the hospital, he keep asking mi to buy him food.. but i can't.. i worry tat if i really buy food for him, i would make him suffer more.. and sorry that i'm so selfish, i dun wanna lose him. another thing that make mi feel hurt is that he can't do his business on his own. he can only pass his motion in the diapers.. but he dun like it..

imagine that a guy who is so da nan ren, have to do his business in his pant, wearing diapers and worst, have to let others ppl to clean his motion.. how would he feel..

i can see tears rolling down from his eyes.. but i could not do anything at all..
i was like, can only standing at there, watching him.. tat all i can do..

HL, i noe when u read this, u must be damn sad that i didn't inform u bout this.. right
i never mention this to any of my close frez.. those who noe is cus they have to noe, eg,
-my project gp mates,some of my close classmates, so that my part able to get cover.
-my teacher, cus like tat can excuse from not have to attend the lesson
-my manager so that i can excuse from work.
that's it..

now, hl aunty, after u read this , dun be sad,, noe why cus u the only one from my outside fren noe bout this.. ps, its not i dun wanna tell u.. actually i wanted to called u on last sat.. but i in the end, i decided not to.. cus i find that its weird, called to tell ppl that my dad is hospitalised..
it kind of sound like i was happy bout it and wanna share this new to my frenz.. therefore, i didn't. at the same time, i remember tat i have forgotten to tell u bout this blog link.. therefore, i only text u this.. btw, ur reply in the sms really give mi a good comfort.. really, i noe u the one, who i once called for help, no matter where u are, u will surely come and help mi one..
like tat its enough already.. really!! *_*)this goes to my other frenz too..

the 2nd person i wanna called is ran cus she now studying in nurse course, if i asked her regarding my dad situation, maybe it can help in my dad recovery, but in the end, i didn't .. i just dun noe why.. in the end, i didn't called at all.. or should say i didn't even sms her. sorry ran..
btw, i did try the pancake that u mention early, my bro doesn't like it.. well for mi.. k la, maybe i prefer crispy while tat doesn't crispy. but its sweet.. even if i eat it plain. the sweetness is there..

k, tat all's for today.. sorry guyx.. really sorry!!!

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